So this is what it feels like to be stuck in a rut

In the most traditional sense a rut is a hole in the ground that extends in 2 directions, forward and back created by wheels moving over that patch of ground repeatedly. The wheels are dragged through the same place over and over in the same direction. So really, being stuck in a rut isn't just being stuck on one track, it's also a lack of control over direction and innovation. After all, a rut is created by those who go before. Therefore, if you are stuck in a rut you cannot be doing anything original, or else it's not a rut.
When we say we are stuck in a rut, we say that we are feeling out of control in terms of what we are doing and where we are going. There is also a sense of futility because we know we are not creating anything valuable, because everything that we do has been done before.

This is not to say that I definitely feel like I'm in a rut. Although, on a monday morning when I have nothing to do at work I certainly feel like I'm underutilizing my life. The big problem is that I can't think of anything better to do with my time than write about some random thought floating through my head. Usually I have a sense of mission that at the very least makes me feel frustrated at wasting time. That feeling seems to be missing this morning, instead I just feel apathetic towards everything.